Something inside is changing

I was never like this,

always receiving elderly bliss.

to everyone I was so helping,

but now something is changing.

I addressed people with words like respected and sire,

but now my sentences include phrases that fire.

All I was good at,was lending,

but now something is changing.

this really compells me to ask myself a question,

Do I still posses a heart of human.

tis my conscience that I'm really finding,

and now something is changing.

Is there something wrong with my mind,

Oh God! Why can't I be kind.

Now I'm anxiously praying,

somebody please tell me why I'm changing?