An Introspection...

A silhouette I keep chasing,

An unknown figure I try finding,

And yet never have I seen it

And yet never have I found it

Still it feels like something valuable

And something much more than just doable

Every time this makes me feel gullible

To the point when I truly am vulnerable.

I'm just another in this world of mortal beings.

Filled with desires for those earthly sins.

Neither with guts to embrace celibacy.

Nor with the intent to lust willfully.

Don't know whom to love and cherish,

Because all of them are bound to perish.

This now that I know with certainty,

Leaves my mind spiraling in obscurity.

God help me know where do I lie.

Show me a way that I can contentfully die 

To find meaning to this lengthy life.

Has now become my constant strife.

I am but a lost soul battling temptations

Finding an abode to call it salvation.

God lend me some strength and patience.

So I can endure to your disposition.

Yes I am a Man

I am muscular and strong,

Think I'm seldom wrong,

Never do I kick the can,

Yes I am a man.

Filled with energy and pride,

Standing tall against the test of tides.

I cherish the scars and body Tan,

Yes I am a man.

Working my brains in overdrive mode.

Never afraid to change abode.

Situations Good or Bad, I scan,

Yes I am a man.

And when the world seems upside down,

On my patience people start to frown.

I too become weak and frail,

Struggling like a blind man on Braille,

Yearning gor love and kindness my heart aches,

Hoping for hugs rather than formal shakes.

Wanting to lay my head down,

And discard the weight of  this worldly crown,

I cry in this unbearable pain,

Still, yes I am a man.

Inhumane

No shame left,

Although they did no theft.

Just looking down on others,

With insulting shoulders.

Flaunting their superiority,

That which being granted temporarily.

Expected to be compassionate,

But now Seldom can be even considerate.

Gestures setting hearts to flames,

And tantrums filled with blames.

Don't you ever fear,

Just to bring another being to tear.

Don't you ever regret,

Those spoken words with such dread.

Don't you ever sway,

From pushing others in harm's way.

Don't you ever see,

The pain caused at your glee.

Don't you ever raise your hand,

Not to hurt but to help.

Sure in this world filled with hatred,

There are people still kind hearted.

Every being to play a part,

To restore love in the forsaken heart.

To the people claiming to be sane,

Now's a call not to be inhumane.

Midnight mood

Silver is the atmosphere,

For the midnight moon is here.

Do not flinch, do not quiver,

In my presence Oh my dear, 

For the breeze they blow,

Only to bring your scent.

And the rivers they rush, 

Only to tell your name. 

This chill in the air,

That moves your hair.

The glitter in your eyes, 

That yearns for my lullabies. 

Love is what the night demands,

This midnight is the one who grants.

This final act of night is so pure, 

Because there are no lies to endure. 

Pluviophile's song

Scorched is the face of earth

And thirsty is the soil beneath

Waiting for the cycle of rebirth

Are those unsown seeds.

For the Efforts of the worms that lurk

Helps the nature’s womb to breath,

To till the land that’s hard

And reach the seeds that it sheaths,

For those seeds they encase life,

Filled with The Creator’s joyful bliss.

To see bark with a girth that will strive,

And branches with leaves waving with breeze

So when it’s the darkest hour of the day,

blowing heavy winds with a chill inside.

Dark clouds gather in an array,

With thundering lightening strikes.

With all eyes gazing the dark skies.

To bear witness to the awaited arrival,

To answer all those tired sighs,

Rains down the tiny droplets of survival.

A confession

I promised to stay with you,

But  never did I stand true.

I know I have failed,

This relationship that I  had nailed.

I didn't give you my time,

But that was my only crime.

Somehow I couldn't hold your hands,

When I had a chance.

Now I've let my ego go,

And my pride hide.

Silenced my verbal violence,

And cried  till my eyes dried.

Now I'm shaken and awaken,

I'm found and sound.

I'm back on track.

On a mission confession

From a Friend For A Friend

Love is what you think you have lost,

but being hurt isn't what it costs.

people might say it's your fault,

but I say it's a false call.

your smile is what I miss,

and your nature a true bliss.

your pain is what I feel,

and I know its too much even for time to heal.

your life has taken a turn so absurd,

Sweetness in life turning to bitter curd.

you have laid your trust deep inside some girth,

but I am telling you Just forget that you are hurt.

Damsel in Distress

There are many promises that I've broke,

done acts that would make you choke.

this relationship I've led to a mess,

and I've let a Damsel into distress.

My pride ,my attitude and my ego,

are the things that I seldom could let go.

my love statements were hoaxes more or less,

and I've let a damsel into distress.

My "goodbyes" always meant "good riddance".

and I know that I've tested your tolerance.

every move towards you was like a move in chess,

and I've let a damsel into distress.

It was all my fault I admit it,

but seldom do I regret it.

these demons in me I can't suppress,

and I've let a damsel into distress.

Hanging In By A Thread

spare me your judgements,

and spare me your consents .

Its trust in which we've been doing so bad.

so just know that I'm hanging in by a thread.

things that you've said have really hurt me,

and relationship with you is running awkwardly.

your doubts on me are the one that makes me sad,

so just know that I'm hanging in by a thread.

pray that I don't say anything rude,

what you want from me , I don't have any clue ,

since past some times I've been acting a sweet lad,

so just know that I'm hanging in by a thread.

you're dragging the line too wide and far,

I promise that this won't end without a scar.

It's your love for which I was driven so mad,

so just know that now I'm breaking the last thread. 

Closer Than Ever

chasing you has taken its troll,

burning my heart and hurting my soul.

now I've stopped it forever,

but still I feel you closer than ever.

May be I wasn't that good nor was I bold ,

It never was a lie that I ever told,

the distances between us becoming wider,

but I still feel you closer than ever.

things are falling apart it seems,

but thoughts of you still wander in my dreams.

those moments without you still make me shiver,

and now I feel you closer than ever.

they can't seperate us Oh! they never will,

the bond between us is stronger than a mere seal.

time won't heal these wounds that you've severe.

and I now feel you closer than ever.

Predator Nature

she is kind and she is fierce,

but when she's angry she brings even mightiest to tears.

she slayed dinosaurs like food in a tray,

but once the predator has now become the prey.

she can destroy everything with showers of fire,

and change mountains to plains like people change their attire.

she can wipe off entire civilization from where they lay,

but once the predator has now become a prey.

we have underestimated what mother nature can do,

and ignoring her presence like we don't have any clue.

we pollute her every night and day,

and once the predator has now become a prey.

but she'll strike us back with a finishing storm,

and see to it that we don't see another dawn.

In her revenge she will be our terminator,

and we'll just watch her turn back into our predator.

Something inside is changing

I was never like this,

always receiving elderly bliss.

to everyone I was so helping,

but now something is changing.

I addressed people with words like respected and sire,

but now my sentences include phrases that fire.

All I was good at,was lending,

but now something is changing.

this really compells me to ask myself a question,

Do I still posses a heart of human.

tis my conscience that I'm really finding,

and now something is changing.

Is there something wrong with my mind,

Oh God! Why can't I be kind.

Now I'm anxiously praying,

somebody please tell me why I'm changing?

Now Its All The Same.

there were times when I said something unusual,

and words that when compared to stones were brutal.

there were situations when I had hurt people really bad,

and broke their hearts and made them sad.

there were times when I behaved unlike you,

and proved myself unworthy of you.

but now since the times have changed,

now it's not all the same.

But it was you who never left me,

and it was you who trusted me blindly.

It was you who held me together,

In all times and in all weather.

while it was you who found in me what was true,

I never even could understand your value.

but now since the times have changed,

and now it's not all the same.

now I am humble and polite,

and my attitude gone down little and slight.

now I am silent and all alone,

change in my life has come like a milestone.

now remembering you has changed me,

because the heart beating in me belongs to thee.

Beautiful day

beneath the beautiful rising sun we lay,

and in the beautiful temple we pray,

those three beautiful words that we say,

and its just a beautiful day.

starring at your beautiful pretty face,

and your soft skinned body that I embrace.

those rhymes of love that we play,

and its just a beautiful day,

beautiful is every word that you say,

kiss your beautiful hands if I may,

your emotions like a potray,

which just makes this a beautiful day

HERO...

when I get home after battle,

I'll do anything you want .

stare into your eyes,

and sing those love song.

ask you to touch my scars,

and heal them for once.

forget the sound of war machines ,

and just dance.

throw my guns in your sight,

and hide myself in your barracks,

erase all those fights,

and and take away all your headaches.

just want to be your hero.

and ask for nothing else.

no further bloodshed.

and no fallen bullet shells.

First Love

new home new place,

but still miss those old days.

new people new state.

but still miss my old date.

slowly when at daybreak,

you held my hand,

and then at dusk,

we laid down on the sand.

spending time everyday,

seeing oceans meet land.

hoping in the same way,

our lives would once ascend.

but once our egos clashed,

and relationship didn't  mend.

I left you and you left me,

thought the trouble would end.

I do regret my mistakes,

but you moved on to a deserving man.

only seeing you happy,

make me happy again.

hope loves you more than I do,

and always holds your hands,

gives you all his hours,

when he has this chance.

This isnt everything you are

neither  the pleasing sound of victory,
nor the garve failure's scar.

It shouldn't stop thee,

because this isn't everything you are.

the path you've chosen,

be it of rubble or tar,

the efforts you're putting,

be it small or large,

the destiny you've set,

be it near or far,

It shouldn't stop thee,

because this isn't everything you are.

You have the guts,

so open the pain's jar,

let the task be difficult,

like a mission to mars,

invite the bad times,

and don't sit at par,

Have faith in yourself,

because this isn't everything you are. 

Just say yes

wandering lonely on empty streets.

with our soft bear feet.

holding hand in hand,

and trying not to pretend,

feelings so closer to love,

hoping to live in a seaside hove,

trying to speak those three words,

but the tongue going all absurd.

looking into each others eyes,

listening to nature's sweet lullabies.

when moon reaches its full glee,

I just say I love thee .

When cold wind blows

I look through your eyes

when those cold wind blows.

and wait for your stare,

till my heart beat slows.

and whenever I glance at you,

my love for you largely grows.

and when you aren't around,

blood in my veins seldom flows.

For me to love you,

I don't have to be close.

neither to prove it,

I need to give you some red rose.

beauty is not in your looks,

tis your heart that I really chose. 

Dead End

I'm at my brains dead end,

and the thoughts of you that I'm trying to defend.

there is nothing that I'm trying to pretend,

but this relationship is all what I'm trying to mend.

we have seen times worse than these,

than why does your love has to sieze.

your every smile that I continuously miss,

than tell me why now? please.

I do hereby want to apologize,

for every little mistake and similar lies.

for these faults this isn't the price,

but won't even give me another choice.

think I will need a helping hand,

in order to see you understand.

Its like I'm just looking at slipping sand,

and Its another dead end.